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Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

de3pblusky — Mon, 02 Jan 2012 09:03:55 +0000

Hello everyone! Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

It’s the second day of 2012 and im so glad 2011 is finally over!!

I can easily sum up 2011 because i basically did nothing but recuperate for the whole year. It was a very bad year for me which i’d gone through many burns, needle pokes, releasing of blood, tears and sadness.

however, im really very thankful and greatful for my friends and family who are always there for me to keep me going on. and definitely my faith to God. at many times i questioned and pondered, even blaming him for such torment. but i’m slowly learning to accept his will for me and i’ll gladly accept his plans for me.

2011 made me realised that there’s alot of things i really want to do but are probably unrealistic or im too old for it. but i would still want to give it a shot. many of my friends are also attached, or i should say almost all my friends are attached. at times, i feel like the odd one out and wonder when i’ll be in a relationship. likewise, it shall be god’s will.

there are so many ppl i would want to meet up with and there’s so many things i miss doing! it’s been almost a year of abstaining from alot of food for me and to be honest, it’s pretty hard in the beginning. even now, sometimes i have strong cravings for certain stuff. even when i recover, i still can’t indulge in all these food i miss and i’ll probably have to abstain for another year. whatever it is, i really hope that my skin will recover asap and i can start growing my hair.

chinese new year is coming up as well and i really wish that i’ll have a change of luck this year!

my wish for everyone is definitely good health and happiness! and may all my dreams come true! but… may i find my dream too!

~wishing upon a star..~

striving on..

de3pblusky — Sun, 20 Nov 2011 03:52:10 +0000

well, the year is almost at the end.

i’ve wasted my whole year trying to recover from the stupid skin disease.

there’s so much things which i could’ve done if i wasnt sick this year. hence, i’ll need to double up what i want to do for next year!

i guess i won’t be able to go for the audition this year. and by next year, i’ll probably be too old for it already. will have to see how next year goes and whether it’s a will for me to go for what i currently have in mind. and hopefully the passion doesn’t die out.

meanwhile to prepare for it, there are a few things i hope to accomplish next year:

1. Singapore taxation law

2. Learn Korean or/and Japanese

3. Dance classes

4. Aikido grading

5. Interview and get a proper job

These are a few things which i currently have in mind and it’s already gonna take up alot of time effort plus money. Whatever it is, i really hope 2012 will be a great year for me. at least to make up for this sucky 2011. it seems like i’ve done nothing for the whole year and it’s gonna end. boo. it also seems that i’ve been wasting my time for the past few years. if only i had a plan or dream right after my A levels. well, it’s all too late now. and time doesn’t stop or turn back..

can’t wait to meet up with people i haven seen for so long! i hope that they won’t forget about me though

have a great week ahead!

~to be young once more..~

into the last two months..

de3pblusky — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 15:37:49 +0000

2011 is almost coming to an end.

im still waiting for my miracle.

still trying to search or even to realise what is my dream. i do realised that wanting to be a celebrity is probably to late for me to start. it’s such a crazy world out there. knowing that i’ve almost wasted my whole year, thinking and reflecting, im too timid to step out. what am i talking about, i don’t know.

im always staying at the same corner, envy others of their achievement.

what do i really want to achieve or do in life? i’ve lost my direction.

isn’t this world going to come to an end soon? then why can’t i just go achieve what i want. but what is it i want?!

i’ll need alot of luck and chances too.

anyway, my newest favourite..

FT Island – Like Birds

~getting older while searching..~

3rd quarter..

de3pblusky — Sun, 14 Aug 2011 13:01:41 +0000

well, 3rd quarter of 2011 is coming.

im still recuperating at home. nothing much to update on my blog nowadays as i don’t exactly leave the house. even if i do, it is just trips to church every sunday and only when im fit to leave the house.

surprisingly i had the most memorable birthday this year. my dearest friends and cousins collaborated with my brother and came over to my place to surprise me. i was really touched and tears of happiness flowed.

got to meet up with my aussie friend ash as well. she was the captain of the monash frisbee team and it was really great to meet up and a chance for me to recharge and rejuvenate. since it has been more than months since i went out, i enjoyed myself the whole day! and also i haven’t been working out or walk much so the day after, my legs really tired out from all the walking.

my current condition is slowly improving. not very fast, but at least there’s improvement. today’s homily in church really struck me. i should not ask God for what i want but his will to be showed upon me. i’m glad to receive whatever is to come in my way. and i shall be glad and humble to be led in God’s will. this is also a great time for me to consider what i want to do in life. even though i still have no idea right now, i’m sure when the day i recover, i will be led to make a wise decision.

so right now, i think it’s an enjoyable time for me to watch shows and just relax. i know i should be upgrading myself but seriously, im just lazy. im also very interested in the entertainment industry currently. the korean industry really intrigues me. well, i’ll just content myself with all the korean songs.
one of my favourites right now. simply love their voice, Homme.

and all time favourite, big bang.

ok, peace out time.

~dreaming of the future..~

still in progress..

de3pblusky — Sat, 18 Jun 2011 11:24:34 +0000

well, my life is basically still the same.

fighting against the virus.

i really hope God will answer my prayer and let me recover quickly. it’s gonna be my birthday this coming monday but i don’t expect myself to be able to celebrate. for the past 2 years in melbourne, i’ve never exactly got to celebrate my birthday due to exam period and all my close friends are back here in singapore.

initially, i was hoping that this year i will finally be able to go out and enjoy my birthday with my friends but i guess it’ll have to be postponed.

have been wondering and thinking why am i the unlucky to have to suffer from all these. what did i do wrong? why must God punish me like this? i know i shouldn’t be blaming anyone because this is my life. all i can hope for now is to be healthy and recover faster. trying very hard not to be in depression.

damn this life. for now.

i’ve nothing much to update apart from complains and whines. it’s just that even though there’s improvements on my condition, there are still parts which appeared again… AARRGGGHHH!!

ok.. this is going nowhere.

bye.

~it’s just a simple wish.~

stagnant..

de3pblusky — Fri, 06 May 2011 07:52:02 +0000

well, im officially gonna be unemployed for this whole year until i fully recover.

my mum thought this will be a good chance for me to recreate myself, my thoughts, my figure and to really think what i want to do. it has been ard 3 mths since i started treatment and i seriously hope i’ll have a speedy recovery. really hoping that i can recover by mid-year. there has been improvement on my condition but certain places do come and go. so frustrating.

i just really pray that my faith will be strong and can keep me going on. i’ve also shaved bald and now i think i look like a little boy. being at home everyday is making me think too much. too much of negative stuff and too much of things which i cant do right now and how i feel that alot of time is being lost!

i just want to be a normal healthy person with nice skin and having a job which i’ll enjoy working in. of course to top it up, to have someone special to share my feelings with and being there for me. now is probably not the right time to meet anyone new cause im sure they’ll be scared of by my condition.

i know i should keep myself happy and think of happy stuff. but seriously, my life is so stagnant now i cant think of anything that happy to last me.

argh.

ugh.

~courage and faith~

interviews

de3pblusky — Fri, 01 Apr 2011 05:39:50 +0000

yup. im still jobless and im still searching for jobs!

well, part of me is reluctant to search for jobs because of my skin condition. there’s a huge patch on my face so ugly! how to go for interview?! i feel so concious about it and i really don’t feel like working in my current state. i really hope and pray that all the scars on my body will just disappear and i’ll just be a healthy girl. this skin condition is really impeding me from doing alot of things! it’s so frustrating! so many things i cant eat, so many stuff i cant do and everynight i have to apply medicine which makes other parts of my skin even drier!

well, it just sucks.

anyway, i’ve been to two interviews so far. one more coming up next friday. first interview i came out with a heavy heart. and then, for the second one, i just told myself to go there and have fun. whether i get the job or not, it doesn’t really matter right now. there’ll always be jobs available right? if i managed to clear all the interviews and offered positions, it’ll definitely be the best and what i would hope for! just that it’ll be a headache to be choosing which one to go for right.. well, life is filled with choices.

but not all i guess. how i wish i can choose not to have this stupid skin problem.

oh well, i realise ever since jc is over, time really passes by so quickly.. every week just pass by so fast and in no time, the month’s gone. first quarter of the year had already passed.

let’s just hope for the best for everyone. ta~

~may all of it disappear and new skin reborn..~

time for update

de3pblusky — Mon, 14 Mar 2011 08:05:53 +0000

well, as the title reads, it’s time for an update..

have been doing nothing since i last updated.. no jobs, still slacking around. mostly because im still recovering or attempting to heal my stupid skin condition.

had quite alot of outings and gatherings with the pri sch peeps though! so fun! looking forward for more of them! thanks kar and xy always asking me out and compromising to what i can eat :p went to so many places! prawning, fishing longkang fish, supper, frogleg porridge, durian session, toy museum visit, mahjong session, kite-flying! well… i think there’s alot! and i believe there’s lots more to come!

the latest gathering! with jiamin and garrick as the addition!

us at the toy museum! with my new hair!

fishy day at qian hu! fish spa and longkang fishing!

prawning sessions with various relations!!

and the annual cny reunion steamboat at my place with the gang! plus my pri sch mates!

oh ya! have been training for aikido as well! paid so much for it.. well, im going for grading this coming sunday! excited! it’s gonna be so tiring.. but after that, have to go burn my skin again.. -.-” fearing.. my seniors told me i could actually try for the 4th kyu, but i decided not to risk it and just go for 5th kyu.. really regret not going for grading in melb.. argh! if not now i really can go for 4th kyu already!

anw.. i have a new hairstyle now.. due to unforeseen circumstances, i had to cut off my long hair i miss it so much! have to wait for another 2 years at least to get back my length!

sometimes i really wonder why my life cant be more simple or that i wont think so much.

right now i think God is punishing the world… sad that all these is happening to japan.. ok. i need a life. bye.

~shall not complain and strengthen faith..~

Graduate.

de3pblusky — Tue, 15 Feb 2011 13:13:38 +0000

to the title, yes. i’ve graduated.

after the long wait and exams, i’ve finally finished my degree and ready to move on to another phase in life. however, im still hovering around and not looking for jobs seriously. i dont really know what i wanna do and i just wanna look around and see what opportunities are there for me.

cny came and gone and it has been quite a hectic past few weeks.. did alot of stuff for the first time, prawning, fish spa, catch long kang fish, ski~ with all these activities done back to back, especially after the last one, my body was seriously aching.. and damn bad.. i’ve nvr worked out so much before! i mean the last time i felt so bad was during jc times.. anyway.. was too tired for the past few days..

not sure what else to blog.. just know that i have to start finding a job so that i’ll have an income.. haiz.. anyway.. enjoy life ppl!

taken by my eximus white! simply love lomography!

simply love this shot!

~【有一种女孩】—- 在陌生人面前会很安静，很冷漠。在熟人面前却很放肆，很霸道！这种女孩子不谈恋爱，只在姐妹间游荡。这种女孩子偶尔看到街上的情侣时，也会幻想，也会羡慕。这种女孩子不会轻易恋爱，恋爱了一定会好好珍惜。若你遇到了这样的女孩，请务必好好珍惜她。这样的女孩请别让她受伤。~

going home..

de3pblusky — Tue, 25 Jan 2011 13:12:16 +0000

im finally going back home for good.

tml is the day when i leave the place which i have stayed for near 3 years. a place where i enjoyed my freedom and a place i really love.

bye, melbourne.

going back is quite a struggle for me. don’t really wanna head back.

anyway, my luggage has severely gone overweight. let’s hope it will be cleared.

safe flight tml and hello to singapore once again.

please let me start to love you.

~to put it down and pick up a new one..~